Cant get my mind working ...

1/30/06
220pm

Its a Monday and boy i can get my mind working...I have been trying to work on my colleagues evaluation results but I cant seem to gather my thoughts on what to say. Probably because I get tensed that I might be doing the right thing and that my oh-so-righteous-know-it-all-boss will not agree to what i have to say... I think Im really, really losing my confidence now. The gutsy-fiesty woman is gone and what was left is this scared-looking girl ... oh nooooo, can not beeeee ... I have to stand up and prove that that gutsy-fiesty-confident woman is still there - and ready to take on the challenge .... go , go, go ... fight, fight, fight ....


later ...

The first time I blog for always ...

1/28/06 1251 pm


Gosh, I never thought i will be doing this stuff... Meee??? I was one of those who thought that those souls doing this kind of stuff are those that have nothing betterto d owith their time .. but on the second thought, i kind of envy them as they have all the time in the world to express themselves in medium that is so fair, not judgemental, never will talk back (no I told you so cliche) and most especially - will never oppose what one has to say err... write . I guess im just inspired to do this blog thing now - because i came into realization that there are a lot of things that stays in my mind that I dont get to express. I have so much to say but have always been so cautious, so scared (?), so selective of what to say, when to say, how to say and whom to tell... its suppose to be a very simple life right? Right, why am I making things complicated for myself then? This new year, I thought of letting loose. To lose my self, my inhibitions, my whatever that is kept that is making my life contained - I want to start taking more risks, to be more spantaneous less or just totally refrain from over analyzing things.

Oh, about the title, well, as I said - I want to have an avenue or medium where I can express myself more - where i can be my total self, where I can lose my self - without fear of scrutiny or rejection or humiliation - pathetic huh , but im taking this as my first step - then who knows - i will be able to transform my total person sooner than I think ...

And so my journey on the blogworld starts now .... and so is the story of my life ....

till then ...